But just the other nite I found myself disgusted in the pit of my stomach with the secularization of Christmas.
I know this is directly related to how in love with Jesus I am.
The thought in my head was that, there's nothing wrong with these songs - to me there's always the integrated "knowledge of God" matched up with them, so I as a Christian can sing "Jingle Bells" and know that there's a christian subtext underlying my yuletide glee.
But when I started singing Chestnuts the other night, it just hit me how vacant of Christ so many ppls lives are and that they'll do anything they can to eliminate the knowledge of God from their lives and their "joyous celebrations" at Holiday time.
I could feel the vacantness, the emptiness, and it was horrible. Right now, there's not a lot of room left for "the secular" (which doesn't mean I won't watch a movie or listen to popular radio). I have to find my value and my entertainment in an unavoidable context of the church - and my heart goes out to those who can't or refuse to.
I just can't bear the thought that the person who wrote one of my favorite Xmas tunes might actually have despised the concept of the Savior, who is my life, my everything.
But I can choose to love those who deny him I guess. help me to love them, Lord Jesus.